How long does it take to process that freaking cheque???
I-NEED-THE-MONEY STUPID!
I just don't get THEM. They promised that we would get the money early April, and this is already the 4th week of April!!!
I need the money. I seriously need the money!
cube kau tak dapat gaji 4 bulan baru tau rase die camne! siotlah. geram tau ish geram geram
I know it's not that much to THEM but it is to me!
Lembab. That's exactly the word to describe them. LEMBAB.
Everyday pergi shopping/main golf/makan gaji buta. They never care about us. They only care when they need us. No wonder so many people cabut lari.
I've had enough of being patient!
Lembab people!

I'm so glad to be back home again! I reached JB around 4 p.m, took a cab and then went straight home :)

I did not tell Wan that I was coming home. It was my intention from the start to sort of surprise him. I made sure he was not planning to go anywhere this weekend. I made up a story about having classes until 4.30 pm when my class actually ended around 10 am today and I already bought the bus ticket the day before. It was hard keeping a secret from him because I am not used to lying (seriously). So, telling him I had classes when I did not was hard! I told him I will call him after "class". Luckily, I reached JB around the same time that my usual class ends. I texted him and asked if I could call him and he said okay. So, I called, using my house phone, and he was surprised indeed!

I'm planning to do a lot of studying at home and this time I'm going to make sure I do.

That's all from me today
:)
My head feels so much lighter now that I'm home. :)

MENTALLY EXHAUSTED
TIRED
ANNOYED
ANGRY

I am almost finish with my trial exam. Most of my friends are done with theirs because they don't have to repeat any papers. I still have one paper left : Literature paper 4. I don't want to think about that right now. The reason I am blogging right now is because I am trying to let out all the bad energy that is inside of me right now. I am mentally exhausted, I am tired, and very annoyed with a certain person that I shall not mention the name.

School has been very stressful lately. It is, after all, called the "intensive revision programme" (I.R.P). The purpose of this programme is to cram all 3 subjects into your head in one month. CRAZY. I was constantly tired, I slept a lot and I stopped jogging. The only subject that I enjoy doing is Math. Just Math. I'm getting better at Math if compared to last semester. Last semester I was getting D, E and U's for my math papers, now I can manage atleast a B or a high C. Literature is just hopeless. I can never excell in that subject. As for Sociology, it depends on how much I like the question. Out of the three questions that they ask in Sociology, the least I like is under the topic "Family". I just hope that somehow, I can manage to get at least 1A and 2B's for my Alevel. Please please please God let me get at least 1A and 2B's. :(

Oh, about the person that I am annoyed with. Hmm. I just wish I could make her disappear *pouf*. If only there was a way to get rid of her from my life. She annoys me so much that I feel like shooting myself on the head when ever she is around. *bam!*

Just 6 more weeks. Just 6 more weeks. And then I am done with this place.

Oh oh, before I forget, there is this certain teacher in school that I shall name as "Ms J". I think Ms J has mental problems. I don't know why she loves to make our lives miserable, and she doesn't even have to teach us to do that!

I don't know what else to write. I'll write more later.
Wish me luck.
I really need it.

Numbers

5 : zits that are on my face (atleast)

41 : days before my first Alevel paper

5 : days before trial exams

3 : subjects that I haven't finish studying

1 : person that I am really truly annoyed with

67 : days before I get out of here

7 : people that i really miss back home

10 : months before I get to go to NZ (which also depends on my exam result)

Forgotten

In my college, T.E.S.L has a whole different meaning to it. You see, in other Universities or Colleges around the world and in Malaysia, T.E.S.L stands for : Teaching in English as a Second Language. But here, in our beloved KMS, T.E.S.L actually stands for : Totally Excluded Socially in Life. Yes. It sucks being forgotten especially when you like this place. I can only think of four people who actually acknowlegde our existence here in KMS : Pn Muna, Ms Rudy, Pn Hamidah and Pn Nina. I can bet that not many people here can really truly say that they love KMS. I feel like I loving a person who does not love me back.

This is not the first time that we (the TESL batch 6) are being forgotten. We haven't been getting our monthly allowance since January (yes, JANUARY) and don't get me started on our book allowance. We were always being left out in speeches given by the Pengetua. And the latest one is, THEY FORGOT TO TELL US THEY'VE CHANGED THE DATES FOR OUT TRIAL EXAM TO NEXT WEEK! Urgh. I hate being forgotten.

I am going to be a future teacher?

I am going to be a future teacher?

I AM GOING TO BE A FUTURE TEACHER?

let me see, what are the characteristics that I have to become a teacher?

I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs ( so, I guess I can set a good example for my future students )

I am very punctual, seriously.

I love kids

I like English ( the language )

Hmm.. guess I am on the right track. hehe.

WE ARE GOING TO HAVE DINNER AT WINDMILL TONIGHT YIPEEE DE DOO.

sorry i haven't been updating. as usual, i've been busy with school. i'm pathetic, i know. You see, I am not popular, not hot, and i don't really mix a lot. I have 3 close friends in school, and my classmates, and that is basically it. I am in my room most of the time, either doing my homework, or chatting with friends, or sleep. yep. i am pathetic.

hmm. life has been miserable for me for the past few weeks. my exam is in 2 months (more or less) and i haven't finish studying yet. I hope some miracle will happen and somehow i will manage to get atleast 1A and 2B's for my alevels.

i don't have anything more to write. so ta for now.

The list

I am having a bad case of tummy-ache. and the worse part is, the thing won't come out!

Ok, now, on another topic,
My one week holiday is ending soon!!! Noooooooo! I am sooooo not looking forward to go back to Seremban! I just can't wait to finish my Alevel so that I can come home!

Anyway, this one week holiday is probably the most satisfying holiday ever ( I don't want it to end though ). Everything on my to-do-list has been checked. :) wipeee.

Here are the things on my list in no particular order :

Watch Mukhsin -done-
Go jogging -done-
Drive -done, a few times-
Go out with Wan -fri,sat,sun,mon,tues,wed-
Spend time with Nana -every single day :)-

There are other things on my list but I can't remember it right now. It doesn't matter because I've done it all.

Oh, ok, now I remember one more thing on the list : COOK! for Wan. Yep. did that.
and also changing my driving licence, no more P. Yipee.

I've done my math homework, halfway through sociology and will move on to WAOVW (Literature work) after I'm done with Sociology.

I going to buy a new pair of shoes tomorrow! for school! yipee. I think this is my 37th pair during my almost 2 years stay in KMS.

Hmm... Oh yeah, I finally get to talk to Dayah this morning. :) She is like the busiest girl on earth!!! But hearing her voice definitely made my day :) I miss her.

Umm... I think I should continue doing my homework now. Will write more soon :)

For him

Wan took me to JPJ to renew my driving licence :) At last, I don't have to use P anymore!! (haha. as if I'm going to drive that much pun)

I am so glad that Wan was with me today. I mean, I am very clueless when it comes to these things (paying bills, renewing things, waiting in line, filling forms), so, when I reached JPJ today, I was so grateful to God that Wan is the one with me. I don't want to trouble my dad with these things because I know he has a lot of other important stuff to do than renewing my driving licence. Anyway, I went there, clueless, I asked Wan to get me a number (again, scared and clueless) and then the person who handed Wan the number asked him to photocopy my IC and P driving licence. Wan handed me the form and asked me to fill it while he photocopied my IC and P driving licence. Me (clueless) became more clueless when he left me with a form in my hand with no PEN! I panicked a bit at first but then I spotted a pen on a table next to the table where we got our number. I went there, I looked at the form and again I became CLUELESS. Oh my god how hard could it be to fill a stupid form? So I read the instructions at the back of the form and tried filling what ever that I know (my heart was beating fast because Wan was no where to be found!). After filling like 50% of the form, Nana (my lil sis) and I, began to scan for Wan but we couldn't spot him anywhere. So we went downstairs but still no sign of him. Nana suggested that we wait for him upstairs where he left us so we did. A few minutes later, Wan came, sweating, as if he just ran a 5 km marathon or something. I felt bad for letting him photocopy my stuff when I was the one who was supposed to do all this (it's my driving licence after all). Anyway, I told him I haven't finish filling the form. (I could see the disappointment on his face, I mean, come on, he just ran around looking for a photocopy machine and I can't even fill a stupid form?) He took the form from my hands and took me to the table where the pen was, and told me what to put in the blanks. After that, we waited for our turn. Our turn came, and 1 minute later, I got my driving licence! Weeee!

I don't know what I'd do without him. Seriously. It's not easy to find a guy like him these days. I mean, he can basically do anything. He's a very practical person! And he's smart too. Sometimes I feel very small next to him (not physically). I used to think I'm better than him (I know, that wasn't right) because my academic results are better than him. Boy, was I wrong! He is actually smarter than me! In many ways!

I wouldn't want to trade him with anyone/anything. He is so special. :) I've learned many things from him. Especially the skills needed to survive in this world. He taught me to be independent. He told me not to be such a spoilt bratt. I think I appreciate my parents more because of him. I realised what my parents have to go through to raise me and my siblings. Sometimes I feel like I never appreciate them enough. When I see how he is around his family, I can't help but smile. I know this is the kind of person I want to be with. We've been through a lot together, we've learned a lot of things, and I don't regret my choice to be with him. I can truly say that he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. :)

When Boredom turns to survey, it ends like this...

1. Whose picture is it that you keep in
your wallet?
- Wan and myself.

2. What time do you usually go to bed?
-11.00 pm. or 10.30 if i'm too tired. yep. I go to sleep very early.

3. What was the last thing you did
before filling this survey?
- I had dinner

4. Who are the people you always meet
the most?
- Ok, since this is the school holiday, I would have to say Wan. I've been seeing him like 5 days straight. But, if i'm in Seremban, i'd say my close friends (zaty, jo, kl)

5. Who's the person you're gonna call
if you need help?
- My dad.

6. What's on your mind right now?
- my homework

7. Who's number on your speed dials?
- I don't know... I've never checked

8. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?
- The three girls (KL, Jo, Zaty), Hidayah, Wan, and family. with them, my life is complete

9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
- Mukhsin again and again and again

10. When was the last time you went
out?
- today. with nana and wan. Haha.

11. Who do you hate the most for now?
- I know the answer to this! definitely this one person who his neck is supposed to be broken by now

12. When was the first time you slept
alone?
- umm...right after my bro kicked me out from OUR room. which was when i was around 9 i think?

13. What do you wanna do for now?
- TESL?

14. What do you do everyday besides eat
and sleep?
- talk on the phone and watch tv oh and cook

15. What could piss you off?
- hmm... a lot of things. to lazy to list it all down

16. are you a animal lover?
- yeah, u could call me that.

17. Colors that make you happy?
- I have no idea....

18. Most fav thing in your room?
- umm...currently living secara nomad. because I'm not sure if this room is the room I'm going to use forever. My original room sudah diambil oleh adikku. so masih berpindah randah. So, I dont have a favourite thing in "my" room. It's all in my bag.

19. What was the last thing you bought
for your room?
- cant remember.

20. Any instruments in your room? what
is it?
- none

21. Can you cook?
- Pasta can. haha. i can cook to survive, it doesnt have to taste nice as long as it is edible

22. Miss someone?
- Can i say Wan Ismail Cholan? Awww...hahahah

23. Plan to buy something?
- Yes, new shoes, new tshirts, but sadly no money left

24. Are you satisfied with your life
now?
- until i reach the land of the kiwi then only i will be satisfied

25. Do you like seafood?
- seafood's ok

26. Breakfast or dinner?
- both

27. What do you usually eat for
breakfast?
- let me see. sometimes nasi goreng, mee goreng, roti canai...depends on the DS's menu i guess? But i dread bubur!!! hate em

28. Did you eat breakfast today?
- yep. wan's leftover spagetti he made me yesterday

29. Do you recycle?
- not really. rarely.

30. Do u have a laptop?
- yeah...

31. What is your favourite fastfood?
- I don't eat them anymore. forever.

32. Cats or dogs?
- cats

33. Salty or sweet?
- depends

34. City or country?
- suburbs

35. How do you prefer to spend your
holiday?
- cherating with my fav people

36. Is kissing normal for your age?
- if they r married?

37. Are you athletic?
- nope. trying to be

38. Do you swear?
- sometimes..

39. Would you ditch your friends for a
date?
- errrr...

40. Do you have your own cell phone?
- yup

41.what do you wear to bed?
- tshirt and pants

42. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
- yeah. silly

43. Coke or pepsi?
- i dont know. i'm trying to stop drinking carbonated drinks too

44. Sugar or spice?
-spice

45. Can you use chopsticks?
- nope


46. Do you like to read for pleasure?
- yeah

47. Do you care about getting good
grades?
- yes. very much. especially when my future depends on it

48.Have u ever fallen sleep in class?
- yeah. a few times


49. Get a job or ask your parents for
money?
- ok. since i dont have a job, i ask

50. Is your dad strict?
- if he has to.

51. Do your parents give you enough
privacy?
- yep

52. Would you trade places (in life)
with your close friends?
- no...i love my life

53. Do your close friends get on your
nerves?
- they do. but usually everything will be ok again :) it's normal

54. Do you tell your mom everything?
- things that she can, and should know.