Btw, Future Doctor is offially gone from my life.

Mystery guy is getting sweeter than ever
:-)

:-)

smiling.

:-)

still smiling

:-)

I feel like dancing

This was back then. 3 years ago I think. I was at my minimum weight, 45 kg :)


This is me, now. Yes, i am that fat. I've gained more than 10kg. I wear a size XL for most of my clothes.

I'm trying to get back to 45 kg, coz i think that is my ideal weight.
Wish me luck!

a productive holiday indeed

movies watched:
Man Laksa (don't ask)
Gubra
High school musical
Ada apa dengan cinta

homework? err

weight lost? none

i'm dead

FUTURE DOCTOR DOES NOT WANT TO TALK
WELL,
IT'S HIS LOSS
I DON'T INTEND TO GIVE HIM MORE THAN TWO DAYS TO TALK ABOUT THIS
after two days, my life is back to normal. without him.

mak just lectured me about my weight. she went on and on about how i should stop eating junk food. she expects me to quit drinking Milo (which is my fav drink ever and i am so addicted to it) and also no more carbonated drinks, chocolates... and bla bla. my god, i seriously can't imagine my life in KMS without all these comfort food. I mean, KMS life is hard enough, and without Milo, maltesers, twix and carbonated drinks, I'd sure go crazy!!! The DS food is, well, not as good as home-cooked meals...
I need these things to survive (junk food , i mean)

I do realise that i'm getting bigger. twice the size i was 3 years ago. i dont like how i feel or look, but i dont know how to start losing weight either.

mak said she wants to "tarah" a bit of my butt, thighs, arms, tummy... (that's basically my whole body) she said the next time she sees me, i better lose some weight.

I'm in trouble!!

Future Doctor + Future Teacher = ?

do not date a future doctor/ doctor if you are not ready to be neglected.

i am the kind of person who loves attention, especially from people I love. I'm not saying the person has to message me or call me all the time but atleast try to show some effort that he/she is interested in me and cares about me. A simple "I miss you" or "how was your day?" would do. Is that too much to ask?

Future Doctor thought I would understand if he does not message me or call me for days because "he will always love me and think of me". Well, how would I know when I am at home, bored with nothing to do, and wondering what he's doing at the other part of the country?
I am a person who talks a lot, and I need someone who can listen to me. Being with Future Doctor does not allow me to do much talking. He's always not available, and his family needs him. I'm not trying to be selfish, I just want to know that he really is interested.

The best thing about the first stages of a relationship is the GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER part. The part where you just want to know more about the other person and learn about his likes and dislikes. But as for right now, I probably know about 10% of Future Doctor, and it seems like I won't be going through that much "getting to know" Future Doctor. Future Doctor is a nice person, and quite naive, i must say. I don't think he knows the basics on being in a relationship.

Future Doctor was very upset when I told him I didn't feel special. He said I should know by now that even if he does not call me, he still loves me.
And then he started talking very very fast until he ran out of breath. Suddenly, he accidently said something he shouldn't have said. The Future Doctor said he lied to me a few times by saying things I want to hear, rather than telling me the truth. I was surprised and I asked him, when did you lie to me? And then he told me everything. I was stunned and I said, "Wow, what a way to start a relationship" and then I said bye and hung up.

I am quite upset when I knew he lied about some things. I know it's a small thing but if I can't even trust him now, imagine how disasterous our relationship is going to be. (I don't think there is going to be one anymore)

I'm sorry, I have my own reasons for this.
Future Doctor and I are not very compatible.

One is cold and quite, the other is loud and crazy.

I will shut my mouth from now on.
I will try not to talk so much.

I am so bored so i decided to waste my time surfing the internet. heheh

oh ya,
i've seen my real grades ( the components that made up the final score )
it was... quite surprising.

For literature:
i got a C for paper 3 and another C for paper 4 = so the overall grade is a C

For maths:
I got a B for Pure math 1 and a C for statistic 1 = so the overall grade is a B

For Sociology: (ohh this is the best part)
I managed to get an A for paper 2, but... a big fat D for paper 1, so the overall grade is a B

Before I tell you my overall points, let me explain how we count the points.

A=5 points
B=4 points
C=3 points
D=2 points and so on...

So, as for my final points, i get a 4+4+3 = which makes it 11.
and the good news is, 11 is already enough to pass :)
yeay

Just got back from a trip to Pusat Sains Negara! :) There was a Talk about "Career in Education"... it was actually for our Tesl juniors but since there were about 20 empty spaces left, my friends and I decided to join them. Besides, our teachers were okay with us skipping school. hehe.
The talk was quite okay, the food was delicious, and I definitely had a great time!
took a lot of pictures...
bought some stuff from the souvenir shop.

:)
will write more soon
my tummy isn't feeling very well today
hehe
later

Abang nak balik France
huaaaaa
:(

IELTS

the IELTS results are out. and i passed! I got a band 7.5 which is quite okay i guess. The passing band for TESL is 7.0. As for right now, I am feeling quite happy and satisfied with what i have achieved. I have no regrets at all because I know I deserve the band given and if i want a higher band, that means more hard work.

You see, success does not come easily. You have to work hard for it and put extra effort. I realised that I will not get anywhere if I continue with what I am doing now. I need to read more, like I used to when I was still in school. My teacher said that if you read a lot, you can improve 1 band in six week. Her explanation made sense to me. She also mentioned about good writers being good readers, which I find to be true. When I was in form 4-5, I used to write phrases/ quotes that I read from books into my essays. It did help a lot, and I never had any problems understanding English language.

After I finished school, my passion for reading slowly decreased. It's already August and I think I only managed to finish one book this year. I just did not have the time to really sit, read and indulge in the book. This whole thing has taken a toll on my english too. I think my english is getting worse, written or spoken. I get confused with the tenses and sometimes the words just won't come out.

So, starting from today, I will try to read as much books as possible. Hopefully, I can raise my band up to the highest level. :)