Pro-Ana? Maybe

I saw "The Thin Club" on DH&H the other day and boy am I interested! YES I KNOW IT IS UNHEALTHY to lose weight that way but I think it really works! It's not that hard, I think. There is this one girl, she started at 106 lbs in the beginning of the show and at the end, she was only 98 lbs! She was soooo skinny! I am not planning to be that skinny but if pro-ana really works, then why not, right? I mean, I've tried exercising and eating right but to no avail. I think I sort of have done this pro-ana thing back when I was 14 and I did lose a lot of weight. I went from a size L to a size Xs! The thing about not eating is, once you get used to it, you won't even feel hungry! That is what I remembered when I kind of stopped eating back then. It's amazing how much weight you can lose in less than a year! It would be nice to be small again...especially when you're 20 and people are paying so much attention on how you look!

I think I'm going to cut back on my eating and see if it works for me! But I'm going to throw in some exercises everyday to speed up the process. :)

Oh, I am not going to totally follow this pro-ana thing. I'm just going to take some things that work and leave out things that might do me harm.

Oh I found the girl from the show, here she is!

Sabrina

Sabrina is a fun, sporty and active 16 year old living with her parents in Lincolnshire. She has always been slim but has been using pro-anorexia sites for four months to help her lose a lot of weight quickly.

Like many girls she's ultra-conscious about her figure. She's had a history of dieting but not anorexia. She diets alongside online friends and posts daily in her online journal with updates of her weight loss.

She admits that the majority of girls on the pro-ana sites have a higher BMI (body mass index) than her but finds the sites helpful with her extreme weight loss goals. She feels the girls on it are 'really supportive and lovely'.

Her first goal was to get from 106lbs (7st 8lbs) to 102lbs (7st 4lbs) for her prom and she looks forward to her next goal of 98lbs (7st) for her GCSE results.

Pro-ana sites seem to be making her weight loss obsession more extreme – she is now picking up tips from the sites on ways to avoid eating.

(http://www.channel4learning.net/support/programmenotes/micro/thinclub/sabrina.html)

Some info on pro-ana:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pro-ana

After looking at some pro-ana sites, I have to admit that there is more bad to it than good. BUT, I am still going to eat less because being an emotional eater than I am now is ALSO unhealthy. It is better to be thin and live up to society's expectations than to be a fat emotional eater! At least by being thin, people accept you more than when you are fat and ugly.

I think this website is quite helpful,

http://www.angelfire.com/indie/thininstead/

I need to lose weight so that my hair will match my face :) I have thin hair thus I need a thin face.

I am 3 months away from my summer school in Langkawi :) Sometimes I feel like I cannot wait to go and study again :) Other times I wish my holiday could be longer. I haven't actually done anything "productive" for the past 4 months and I am not proud of it. I've only read about 3 books out of about 6 books that I was so eager to read before my long holiday. I didn't buy all the Hot magazine that I told my friends I would buy. I did go for a trip around Malaysia with my Darlings on my second month of holiday ( one of the few things that I wish I can do again soon ). Oh and yesterday, I did something to my hair, which I think is worth it since my hair needed the fixing anyway. I've also installed The Sims 2 plus the expansion packs so now I am addicted to the game. I try not to play so much though, because my mum said it'll be a bad influence to my lil Sis who will be sitting for her UPSR next year ( I agree ). Oh and I haven't finish GW season 1 yet ( I blame the Sims 2!!! )

And other that helping my mum out with a little bit of housework (she still does most of the work) and all of the above, I think I pretty much wasted my holiday. Weehee!

:)

Have you ever feel that the further you are from your loved ones the more you feel needed and loved? But when you're around they never seem to notice you that much? Well, I have.

Later

Facebook no more

I have officially deactivated my facebook account! after a few weeks of using it, i just don't find it interesting anymore. i'm sticking to my friendster account. I know it is not as fun as facebook, but all my friends are there. oh and kb, don't worry, I have your number and I read your blog, so we'll always be in contact :)

MY 20th!

My birthday was nice :) I spent the day with Wan, shopping. He bought me a pair of skinny jeans that I chose myself as a birthday present :) Thank you yang! I was actually quite surprised when he asked me if I wanted the jeans because it's very rare of him to do that, but since it was my birthday, and after a few more rounds at the other stores, I decided to get the jeans. We went back to the store and he bought it for me! Now I need to go and alter the length because it is too long! :( I wanted to alter it at the store itself but the girl there says we need to wait for another two days and pay an extra RM5. I was too excited about the jeans that I cannot bear the thought of leaving it there for another two days! and besides, nobody at home is going to be free this week to take me to the store to get my jeans :( I also bought myself two new t-shirts :)

Around 5.30 pm we made our way to Damai for our break fast. We had to go there early since it would take us at least half an hour (without the traffic jam) to get there from Tebrau City mall. Another reason is because we haven't ordered anything yet (but we have booked) , so we had to get there early anyway.

After break fast, he sent me home. We had to end the date early because he was going back to Shah Alam that night, and since he was going to drive, I didn't want him to drive so late.

It really was a lovely day for both of us and I miss him dearly right now! He's going to be busy this week with tests and assignments... so no Wan this week I guess :( But it's okay, he's coming back on the 8th! Cannot wait :)

I can't believe it's been almost 3 years already :) It's the third time we celebrated both our birthdays together and it's going to be the third time we're going to celebrate Hari Raya together too :)

Selamat Berpuasa and becoming Raya! :) Have a nice day people!

I have finished watching the first 4 episodes of Ghost Whisperer Season 1 :) I am totally in LOVE with GW! I cry during each episode! I can't wait to finish watching the whole of season 1 so I can start downloading the second season :) yeay! Thanks to my lilsis for introducing me to GW. :)

I am very bad at noticing new comments on my blog, especially if it is a new comment on an old post. heh. But today, as I scrolled down to my previous posts, I discovered a comment from an anonymous person telling me things that I do not want to know. I also realised that I have changed my url before I even get to read that comment so that person probably do not know my blog address anymore (except if it is from a close friend...) So anyway, people, if you want to leave a comment, please leave your name too. Initials would be good enough. I hate the feeling of being stalked. :-( And if possible, please comment on what ever you want including myself but please leave out my family (If you have negative things to say)

That is all.
Thank you

For the past week, my life has been so great that I thought I was dreaming! I received a message from Pn.Somchit last week and she told me to tell all my friends that those with 10 points and above can go to nz! I was sooo happy when I read the message that I almost could not breathe. hehe. I am so glad that things are starting to turn out well for me! After a month of frustration and feeling lost, the good news gave me back my life in an instant! I don't have to worry so much about my future anymore except to study my ass off and get that degree I oh-so-want! :)

InsyaAllah if everything goes well ( I do hope! ) , I will be studying in Victoria University of Wellington early next year doing my degree in Bachelor of Education (Tesl) :)

Ever since the good news, my relationship with Wan has been great too! It's like, suddenly everything is just like when we first started dating. I guess the last month I have been a little bit cranky and distant, that's why our relationship was a bit sour. But things are O.K again now :)

Wan is coming home this 28th of September because he wants to celebrate my birthday with me! and I am so happy! It's been a longgggg time since the last time we went on a romantic dinner date. So, I am definitely looking forward to that! I wonder what he will get me for my birthday? hmmmm :-/

I guess that is all for now...but I will update soon! :)
Take care!

Oh yeah, KB, if you are reading this kan, I sangat sangat miss you! balik la jb so that we can pergi buka puasa sama2! :)

Oh and Shael, I hope to see you sangat-sangat because it's been ages since we last talk like we used to! I am sorry that I have been busy but InsyaAllah I hope to see you again!

As for my best friend Hidayah, I miss you too! I hope we can have one more last slumber party before I go... like old times!

Umm...my darlings! Shufaiha, Jo, Zaty... hope to see you guys soon! Kaklong asked ms rudi if we can come to college and sleepover kat asrama and she said yes! we can even eat the food kat ds! so marilah plan and go there one last time...lepas ni who knows when we can visit the teachers lagi kan? besides, i need a vacation with you guys lah... tido allson nak? hehe.

Woah.

woah. It has been ages since I wrote anything on this blog! but here I am again, back with an update and will probably be gone again for another month or two.

I will be updating the things that has been happening in my life for the past month according to topics.

1. On friendship

I miss my friends a lot, especially those who are making the effort to keep in touch with me! I can't wait to see them again soon! (i hope!) You see, I only appreciate friends who appreciate me as their friends.

2. On my love-life

Wan and I are fine. We've been getting along o-kay. We rarely argue anymore (but this is probably because of the lack of communication that we are having for the past few months) I think I am happy with the way things are between the two of us and I haven't been caring that much on where this relationship is heading anymore since I have more important stuff to think about.

3. On my studies

I am already half-way through my 6 month holiday. About what I will be doing next or where I will be studying, well, I don't know. For the first time in my life, I feel really lost. But I believe that God has something planned for me, I just have to figured out what it is. I will never let things like this put me down. I am going to keep my chin up, smile, and move forward. I hope I get the important call soon. Praying hard for it.

4. Life at home

I like the feeling of being at home again. I like spending time with my little sis even though she annoys me sometimes. I like the fact that I can read any book I want instead of the ones that I have to (for examination purposes). I love the fact that I can watch my favorite TV shows without being interrupted because I am home alone most of the time during the weekdays. So yeah, life at home has been great. I know I will be missing this life soon.

5. On other stuff

Truly and honestly, right now, I feel like going on a vacation with a few of my close friends that I can actually enjoy my time with, to a place that has a beach maybe? maybe we could stay at a resort or something? how nice would that be kan? but it won't be happening anytime soon since I am currently very very broke.

I guess that is all for now.
See you in a few months, I hope. Or maybe sooner!

I was tagged by Zatyness busuk :)

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Rules
1. Each player must post these rules first.
2. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

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My 8 random facts

1. I loveeeeee buah pelam.
2. I am always punctual. oklah, 9 times out of 10
3. I have a stuffed cat named Memel.
4. I don't eat sushi
5. I bought a new pair of shoes yesterday
6. I can only speak two languages
7. I still live with my parents
8. oh,my birthday is on the 30th of september so remember that. heheh

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Tagged!

okay i'm too lazy to find 8 ppl to tag. :(