Taken just a few hours ago......


the one on the left loves the one on the right...



...and she is missing him so bad right now...



...from up above

...Wan is leaving in less than one hour... This is so hard for me... I'm so used to having him so close, and now he won't be that close anymore. I knew that this day would come sooner or later but I was never really prepared for it. I sort of let myself believe that he would always be here, and that I could come back to see him anytime I want...

There are a few things that I wish I had said and done. I wish I had told him more often how much he means to me, and how much I love him. I wish I had never hurt his feelings.

I miss you so much.
I love you.

Take care dear.

I didn't do much today.
I watched TV the whole afternoon. Nana followed dad to his office so I was at home, alone. Mum went to Desaru this evening and will be back tomorrow afternoon. Sis took me out to dinner at SS just now. ;-) Oh, and Wan took me around JB in the evening cause we were so bored.

You know that stage where when you are with someone you love, that silence doesn't bother you anymore? You feel comfortable being with that other person without having to say anything. You look at him, he looks at you. You smile, he smiles back ; and you both just sort of enjoy each other's company.

Well, Wan and I are sort of at that stage. Sometimes we don't talk at all. Just having him next to me is enough. I can just look at him and sort of know what he wants to say to me. I know it's only been 8 months but that's just how I feel when I'm around him. When he takes me for a drive around the city, or for a walk at the park, we barely talk about anything. I enjoy holding his hand and look at the beautiful view from the hills at the park, and having him next to me makes it extra special and extra beautiful.

No, we are not a boring couple. We share everything together. Sometimes, we both have so much to talk about that we could barely understand what the other is trying to say. (because both wanted to speak at the same time) and in the end, one had to say, "takpelah, u cakap dulu.." hehehe.

I'm glad I found him. I changed a lot after I met him. (Good changes)
Thanks dear
;-)

Love ya!

This new font size, tell me, is it easier to read?

Any tips on how to lose weight? FAST?

I cannot control my eating habit anymore. I EAT ALL THE TIME.
I can bet that if I ask Wan to carry me, he wouldn't be able to do that. I bet I'm heavier than him. I hate taking pictures of myself from neck down.

I HATE MY TUMMY.

Ok, I'm going to stop eating now. We'll see if it works in 3 weeks.

Later

The lucky one, am I?

I am not wearing my contacts right now and I can't really see what I'm typing. Sorry for any spelling mistakes :-( I'm just too lazy to get my glasses.

I just woke up actually, still wearing his jumper. I smell like him. Hehe. :-) This really reminds me of that Destiny's Child song "T-Shirt".. here's a bit of the song's lyrics :

"..When you're not here, I sleep in your t-shirt, I wish you were here, to take off your t-shirt, after we make love, I sleep in your t-shirt, wake up in your t-shirt, still smell the scent of your cologne..."

hehehe. err..minus the making love part (I'm not legal to do that yet)

Anyway, I am so in love with MR.BLUNT right. Yes, MR.BLUNT.
hehehe. My favourite song is "Good Bye My Lover"
It's probably the best song I've ever heard. :-)

" I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you."

I think that's my favourite part of the song... ;-)

I started reading a bit of sociology questions last night. hehehe, Still haven't started doing anything yet. I have to. I should. I have to work harder to get that unreachable A. :-(

Oh oh! Hidayah texted me yesterday and she told me that a bunch of girls were talking about me yesterday. It started as a topic about books or movies or something and then my name came out. And one of the girl's said " Rasyiqah yang pernah masuk kmj kejap tu ke?" , "yang dulu dengan syahrul eh?"

hahaha. I can't believe they still remember me. I thought I was long forgotten. Thanks to that Syahrul guy, I guess? This is what you get when the most goodlooking guy in college has a crush on you. hehee.

Speaking of goodlooking guys, I met someone in Langkawi. I'm still not sure whether it was a dream or if it really happened.

I went to the atm to get some cash, alone. Mum was busy shopping and dad was waiting for her in front of the shop. So, I walked alone (it was at night). It's not that far from the shop. When I reached there, suddenly a guy ( tall, handsome, fair) asked me, "ni ika kan?". I looked at the guy, and I smiled, "hey...zikri kan?" and then we talked for a few minutes and went our separate ways. When I was walking back to the shops where my parents were at, he came back and said "eh, lupe nak tanye nombor handphone..." I smiled and gave him mine. I asked for his number but he said he would miss call me.

And so I waited.

It was about 12 midnight that he sent me a text, he opologised because he had no credit to call me sooner. We chatted for a while. And then he told me that he's been having a crush on me since we were still in highschool. I told him I already have a bf (besides, I don't know him that well) and he was a bit frustrated when he found out. But I told him that we could still be friends.

The next day, he did a surprise visit at my hotel. I was at the pool area sitting on the chairs in my beach skirt and white top. I got a text from him asking where I was. I told him I was at the pool area. And then he replied, "ika pakai baju putih ngan seluar pendek merah?" (well, close. but i wasn't wearing shorts, it was a beach skirt) I asked him where he is and suddenly he pop up from behind me. I smiled and ran inside and changed my clothes. After that we had a long walk at the beach. And then he told me everything.

But, like I said, I'm in love with wan right now. I'm not planning to leave him anytime soon (or ever) and no matter how many cute handsome guys that I will meet along the way, wan will always have my heart.

Zikri said he will still wait for me no matter what. He's too in love with me right now especially after seeing me. Sorry zik, I can't force myself to love you back...

(err.zik is one of my relatives, that's how I knew him before, but we weren't that close)

It's kind of funny that a chubby girl like me has crushes. I have no idea what they see in me.

I guess that's all for now.
I'll write more soon.
Sorry again for any spelling mistakes, still haven't put on my glasses.

Half way through my holiday and I still haven't done anything productive yet.
Hehehee.
I'm going to read sociology...err...soon.

Wan is going back on Sunday, and we won't be seeing each other until I don't know how long. Arau is too far away and it's impossible for me to go up there... The only way to see each other is if he comes to visit me in Seremban or we both meet up in KL. (Which is not going to happen that often)

If a guy says he's going to wait for you, will he really wait for you? (No, I am not talking about Wan)

I miss my dayah so so much! I got great news from her, she's coming back this Friday!!! ;-) I can't wait to see her! Besides, this is the only chance for Wan to meet my bestfriend!

PLEASE LET ME GET ATLEAST 12 POINTS!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! I don't want to go to prep at night....... no no.... I promise I'll study harder... promise....

I have zero respect for people who take pictures of their boobs and put it on friendster. It disgusts me so much. I mean, what do they want to achieve? What do they get from doing that? Please, find other ways to attract attention. I can still tolerate some cam whores...but not this kind.

I saw this girl's friendster page, she studies in IIUM, and her page is full of her cam-whoring. Friendster has a limit of 50 pictures that you can upload, and she uploaded about 40-something photos of her ; 90% of it are of her face and boobs, and her kissing her boyfriend.I mean, yes, you can have a boyfriend (there is nothing wrong with that) but you don't have to show the whole world (or the people on friendster) what you do with your boyfriend. I am not that religious but I still think what you are doing is wrong. Besides, no one is going to want you after you break up with that a**hole (which i think you will, sorry)

Oh and who needs to see your picture after you took a refreshing shower? PUT ON SOME CLOTHES FIRST!

hmm.and there is also this one girl's blog...and her blog is also full of boob shots, and kissing her boyfriend.(If you want to kiss your boyfriend, keep it private) and we do not want to see your boobs thank you. She's even proud about it... (you have to read the blog) oh and she's not an ordinary person, she's from kerabat-kerabat... malu kan?

Take decent photos... you can camwhore all you want, but put on some clothes first.

I'M IN LOVE WITH MR BLUNT. MR BLUNT MARRY ME!