Just some random pictures

Happy Birthday Nurin!!! (22.10)


Shades 8-)


*My favourite guy*


Sis and I, Langkawi, some time last year


Airport Senai, my family

Okay, since I haven't been posting anything interesting lately, I've decided to write something today (but I can't promise if it's going to be interesting or not because until now, I still have no idea on what I am going to write)

This is my sixth day at home.
I haven't been doing anything productive, I am not studying enough, I've been sleeping too much.

Oh, BUT, on my second day at home, (or was it the third? nvm) I made some Bantal Salomas. hehe. I have no idea why it's called 'Bantal Saloma' but a few years ago a good friend of mine told me that is what it's called. I think it is famously known as 'roti gulung' kot?
I made ten of these cute roti gulung/ bantal saloma and I gave Wan 5 of it. :) He bought me nasi lemak kukus and air kathira from the bazaar near my house (it was so nice of him)

Yesterday, I made some sambal for myself and fried some chicken. I love sambal!!!

and today, I am going to break-fast with Wan! Nyum nyum.
I think we're going to It Roo kot?

I think I should stop here for now...this entry sucks. I should really try to improve my writing!! haihhhh

Two nights ago, I had some trouble sleeping. I couldn't get my eyes to shut eventhough I was very very tired... I, suddenly had a panic attack that I might not be able to sleep ever again. So, after school the next day, I tried to get some shut eyes but my attempt at sleeping failed miserably...My friends tried to help by singing to me, rubbing my back to make me relax, but still, I COULD NOT SLEEP.

I cried a lot yesterday. I seriously thought that I will never be able to sleep. I looked so tired that people might have mistaken me for a zombie. So, I took one tiny sleeping pill,(just to help me sleep), and guess what? I waited for more than 2 hours and nothing happened!

According to a friend, it was supposed to make me sleep for 7 hours straight. So, I cried some more, and then when I opened my eyes...it was already 4.30 am.

But the thing is, I didn't feel as if it was sleep at all. It was like, I shut my eyes and it was morning. I am still tired because my sleep was not really "sleep".

Anyway, I really hope that tonight, I will get real sleep. My friends say that I think too much and something is bothering my mind...but I have no idea what's bothering my mind.

I need my mum & dad.

I could not sleep the whole night last night!
My eyes just won't shut...
and now, I am like a zombie.
I am sooooo in a bad mood

I ...
have absolutely nothing important to write...

oh yeah,
my friends and I are going to the bazaar ramadhan this evening.
:)

TURN THE LIGHTS OFF

Turn the lights off, please.

I am the kind who loves to sleep in total darkness. I don't mind a little light, but I prefer the dark, when you can't even see what's in front of you. I sleep more soundly that way. But being here, ofcourse I can't be selfish. I have to tolerate roomates who, well, sleeps late. So, whenever I want to go to sleep, I would have to deal with the lights on. But lately, the lights have been on until 7 am and I seriously am beginning to mind. It has taken a toll on my sleep, you know. I need quality sleep so that I don't get grumpy and sleepy in the morning.

people SLEEP at night!
I hate it when I open my eyes and I see lights, it makes me dizzy. I am usually the one who will be up first so it is very disappointing to see everyone asleep but the lights are still on. (not to mention the waste of electricity)

I know they need to study, hey, I need to study too. But between 2.30 am-6am, people actually rest their heads from any kind of studying. I know I'm not as smart as them who study until 5-6 am but please be more considerate.

I'm not asking for much, I just hope that they would respect me more... I don't know how long I can stand tossing and turning at night, covering my face with my pillow just so I don't see lights, but then realise that I cannot breathe.

It's not like they can't use the study lamp...
I get my sleep, they get to study,
fair right?

well, I don't know what's the use of me complaining here...I just hope I can get a good night sleep tonight. :-(

I hereby annouce that I am officially dead.
HEHEHE

well, I am, after the teacher finish marking my stats paper. I've done the paper before, yeah, for my AS, but I never thought that I would have to do it again, for my trial! So there I was, unprepared. If it was another tough paper I would have been okay with it. But noooo, it had to be THE PAPER that KILLED me during AS. If it wasn't for that paper, I might have gotten an A on Math.
I suck at everything. I really do.
I can't do anything right. I always screw things up. I better clean up my act now.

I have PURE MATHS 3 tomorrow (another reason for me to die tonight) I am soo not prepared!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME.

Enough about the exams, last FRIDAY, Kaybee dropped by!!! I LOVE HER!!! I WAS VERY VERY SURPRISED TO SEE HER WHEN SHE CAME INTO MY ROOM. I thought i was dreaming... but no, it was really her!! hehhe. the cake she brought was soooo delicious! Yummy!
We didn't get to spend that much time together because she had to catch the train before dark. But I'm planning to go visit her soon. AFTER this whole exam thing is over with. WAIT FOR ME TAU.

hmm.. what else what else.
It's the third day of puasa...and I'm still pretty much the same size as i was before (or larger)
whattodo whattodo

I am crapping so i better stop. will write more later.
daaaa

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!!!

AYAH!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
HOPE U WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!!
LOVE YOU AYAH!!!

"Don't worry, it's not a loss of mankind" -rasyiqah, when talking about guys in KMS.

On another topic, I would like to talk about friendship. Yes, friendship. Since I was in form 4, I only had one bestfriend, and she was, and still is, everything to me. I could not think of one moment that I feel like pushing her off a building. We rarely annoy each other, and I think she is the one who understands me the most.

Just imagine, she was there when nobody wanted to be my friend, she was there when I was at my lowest low, she was there when a guy came into my life, she was there when the guy left, she was there when I was crying in the middle of the night, she was there when I wasn't crying...

I love her to bits and I'd jump off cliffs to save her life.

Being here, without her, especially after feeling hurt by a friend, makes me feel like crying. I used to run to her and she would make me feel all better... but now she's not here, and if someone hurts my feelings, I have no choice but to keep everything inside my heart. I have a feeling that this heart of mine is going to burst into pieces because of all the feelings and emotions that I've kept crammed inside.

(Actually, I have deleted the last bit of my post. I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings especially this friend of mine. I don't blame her for treating me like that, and as for right now, I can still take it. )

Weheeee. Home is where the heart is!!!

I am so happy to be home! even if it's only for the weekend. I am so sick of KMS that I'd do anything to be some place else. It was last week that I decided I HAVE to go back home or else I'd go crazy! Everything about KMS is just wrong for me right now.

I reached my beloved JB at 5 pm and Dad picked me up at the bus stand near my house.

So, here I am now. In front of the computer. I've just finished chatting with my Brother. He seems happy :) and I love his new place. He showed me around using his webcam.

Ayong chatted with me too. She too, seems to be enjoying her holiday in Paris :)
She said she bought me TWO zara t-shirts. Thank you Sis. Love you so much ( with or without the shirt, hehe) She says that it is wayyy cheaper over there if compared to Malaysia... maybe that's why she can buy me two :)

I hope abg ARF is having a blast in Paris with Sis.

Mum cooked my favourite dish. hehe. HAPPY HAPPY

Oh before I forget, Abang, Please Please do not call me Debabs. I'm afraid it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy! Nanti Iqa DEBAB betol2 nanti. Hahah.

My first REPEAT paper is on the 16 of October. I will only be going back on the 16/17 while the rest of my friends are going back on the 13. Serves me right for not getting an A on that math paper. :(

I miss Hidayah.
I think I'm going to call her TONITE.

Later.