6 months
6 wonderful months, full of ups and downs, tears, laughter

I would go through those six months over and over again if I have to.
We fight a lot, but we love each other more...

I first met him 8 months ago...15 march 2005.

Before this, I only knew him as "one of my brother's friends" and we had never talked to each other. He added me as his friend on friendster one day, and he sent me messages. We got to know each other a bit through friendster. :-) and that was all.

We stopped messaging each other after a while and lost contact. Until a few months later after my SPM when he sent me another message asking how I was doing. I was quite close to two of his friends so one day my friend bought me a dvd that I wanted and sent it to my house, he was in the car. That was the first time I ever saw him.
I wasn't wearing my glasses so I couldn't really see him. :-(

15 March 2005, I went out with his other friend and he came along. :-) we went to see Sepet. There were two guys and I'm the only girl, so I sat in the middle. :-)
We had lunch after that. It was really fun. He was very shy and did not talk much. I thought he wasn't interested. I was the one who asked for his number :-) I never called him...I didn't think he was interested so I just let it go. One night he texted me and asked what I was doing. It was 11 pm I think, and I was half asleep. I told him I was sleeping so he said sorry and asked me to continue sleeping. And that was it. He thought that I wasn't interested, and I thought that he wasn't interested.

One day, one of our friends asked me to join him for lunch. I didn't know that he was going to be there as well. So, the three of us had lunch at Vivo. He was so quiet and I did most of the talking. He just listened. We only met twice and that day, I FINISHED his piece of chicken. Until today, I still cannot believe I did that. :-(

A few days later, I was checking my friendster account when I got a message from him. He asked me if I was online and I said yes. I told him to sign in to YM so that we could chat. He did and we chatted online for a few hours. :-) He told me he was planning to go jogging that weekend and was wondering if I would like to join him. I said yes. We also talked on a phone a few times after that, and usually until 3 am in the morning :-)

The weekend finally came at last, he was going to pick me up at my house at 5.30 pm that day. I prayed that it wouldn't rain that day because I wanted to meet him again so bad. So we went jogging that day, (I was more like walking I think) and we got to know each other better. :-) We went to see another movie (this time just the two of us) "Tentang Dia". That was the first time I got home so late and my mum wasn't even mad. :-) We had a lot of fun that day. :-)

The next weekend I was quite busy with two interviews that I had to attend. One was in KL and the other in JB. We didn't text each other at all that week. I did sort of miss him a bit. It was only the night before my interview in KL that he sent me a sms wishing me luck. I told him I was so nervous but he said not to worry and that everything was going to be just fine. The interview went so well, I couldn't wait to go home and tell him all about it! But I couldn't find the time to call him because I had another interview two days after the first interview. The second interview was just "okay". I called him right after I reached home and we talked for hours. :-) I was so happy to have someone to listen to my stories.

We went to jogging again the weekend (6 May 2005) after my interviews. :-) He bought me two milo canned drinks ( I told him I was addicted to milo) It was the sweetest thing ever. I couldn't believe he still remembered things I told him. Before sending me home, we cooled down outside the car, we talked, we joked, we laughed. He asked me to stand next to him because he wanted to tell me something. But he didn't tell me, not until that night. He sent me a text saying that he misses me and that he's falling in love with me and didn't know what to do. I was so happy he said that cause I've been thinking about him a lot for the past few weeks and I was falling in love with him too. :-) and six months later, we're still together...

Still together
Still going strong
:-)

Thanks for everything dear, I'm so happy to be urs.

JUST PHOTOS.

I don't know what to write so I decided to show photos instead... Enjoy


"Beautiful Blue Eyes"
A cat gave birth to these beautiful kittens at the back of my house early this year... they were so scared when I took this picture... :-( two of them died :-(


this was taken on my sister's birthday I think. We went out with some of her friends to celebrate her birthday. It was fun :-)


Taken yesterday...I was bored waiting for my other friend in the fitting room. So, decided to take some pictures while we waited. This picture is actually the reflection of us on the mirror...The girl in red shirt is Suraya, one of my closest friends back in SIGS.


Azy...after she was done trying out some clothes. :-)


Hidayah... highschool years :-) good old times.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri everyone

Well, to tell you the truth, I don't feel like celebrating "hari raya" at all this year. Ayong and Abang will not be here to celebrate the first day of raya with us. :-( Dulu,semangat nak celebrate raya because ramai cousins kat kampung. Now, semua dah/nak cabut study overseas. My sister pun dah kahwin and ofcourse she will be celebrating the first day of raya at her mother in law's house.
This year, my family and I balik kampung only on the second day of raya...this year pun if i'm not mistaken, only my mak ngah yang balik kampung on the first day. 10 years ago, kampung used to be so kecoh with sepupu2 yang bising, makcik pakcik sembang2...now, sepupu2 semua dah besar2, and 2 of them dah blaja overseas, and another two insyaAllah akan fly soon. (This is what happens when you don't have that many cousins)

And to make it worse, bukan dapat celebrate with my bf pun. Entah2 tak sempat? cuti tinggal sikit...

Right now I feel like i'm losing him. No, we're not having a fight. It's just me. Nothing he does makes me happy anymore. I don't know who's fault it is but I don't like it. I want us to be like we were 6 months ago.

I'm too depressed to write more right now.
later.

NUR HIDAYAH MUBARAK

my bestfriend.
my soulmate.
I MISS HER SO MUCH!

Hidayah and I have been bestfriends for almost... 3 years now? :-) I can't believe how fast time goes by... We first met in 2003, we were classmates. :-) She sat at the back of the class while I sat in front. One day we talked, and we bonded from then on. I started to learn about her and soon we were inseparable. We went everywhere together, and even the teachers thought we were twins ;-) Our friendship grew stronger when she started sitting next to me in class. We did almost everything together. We even had the same pencil case...
I tell Hidayah everything. I've never kept a secret from her. She's a very good listener and she never judged me for the things I did. She's also VERY patient with me. I JUST LOVE HER.
One time, I was having a problem and I desperately needed somone to talk to, but it was already midnight and I knew she was asleep. I called her anyway, and eventhough she was very tired, she still listened to my problems and comforted me. Now tell me, how many true friends would do that?
And there was also this other time when I texted her in the middle of the night, but she didn't reply. So, I called her a few times. And then a few minutes later she called me back. She was so worried if something had happened to me. She told me she was asleep and did not hear her phone rang.
Hidayah was also the one who backed me up when people talked behind my back, she was always there for me and she still is.
Eventhough we're 200 Km away from each other now, our friendship is still stronger than ever. I still call her and we talk often. On my last birthday, she sent me 18 messages, one message representing one year of my life. I can't wait to see her soon! I really miss her a lot... We haven't seen each other for 2 months now...

THANKS hidayah...for being the best bestfriend anyone could ever ask for!
:-)


Me~Hidayah = Slumber party


;-)

Pictures we took today

Location : Danga Bay


Beauty ;-)



Wan And I. ;-)



Danga Cruise? Hmm.

My life and sociology have become one now. Everytime my friends/ i make a statement about something, we just HAVE to link it to sociology. Like when we make a comment about guys who act like girls (sissy) , there will always going to be someone who's going to say this : "aaah! but who decides how guys should behave? it's THE SOCIETY who decides" hehehh...sometimes our normal conversation can turn into a huge argument...I BLAME SOCIOLOGY. now everytime i see something or hear something, I will relate it to sociology... my life used to be much easier and simpler. :-(

Just some pictures i took with my new camera...enjoy

Location : Around KMS


Parcel from my sweetheart on my birthday :) it's a novel. and a card. and a short message. :) Love u.


The next day, my dad hantar cake. :) had a little party in my room :)


The birthday girl...hehe. ME.hehehe


Juadah Berbuka Puasa :) Yummy


DS food....


The girls


Little ones


us...

two days ago my bf told me that he wants to work at the Petronas Twin Tower someday. I told him that I wouldn't let him do that, because I don't want anything bad to happen to him. (Imagine if what happened on 9/11 happens again?) yeah yeah, I know I think too much... and then he said something that made me realise something... WE CAN NEVER RUN AWAY FROM DEATH. This is what he said to me "kalau nak mati, kat mane mane pun boleh mati...tak boleh lari..." which is so true. I know this all along but I never really realised how true it is. You can run as far as you want, but when it's time for you to die, you just...die. I guess my fear is what's been holding me back from doing a lot of things... Like going on that huge rollercoaster ride with my bf because I was afraid of falling off the rollercoaster, Or swimming freely in the ocean because I was too scared that I would drown...I should be more positive... Thanks dear. :) Love you.

I'M HOME!
I'm so glad to be home!! (eventhough I don't have my own room anymore... :( my sister took my room after I left for Seremban ) so for now, I'm staying in my other sis's room (she's got her own house 20 minutes from home ;) ) her room is kind of cool...air conditioning, a huge bed all for myself, wall to wall carpeting...it's much better than my ugly green room (I chose the color myself, so yeah...blame me) I left all my stuff in my old room, and I still use the bathroom in my old room. I just don't sleep there anymore because of the single bed which nana is sleeping on right now :( besides the room is too small for two people...

Anyway, breaking fast at home is always the best! You get to eat delicious home cooked meals!! I missed tasting my mom's cooking! I'm sick of eating DS food already...Food back home is much much better! Plus, you don't have to line up to get food, you just sit at the table and the food is already served for you :)since I just came back, mum let me choose the menu... :)

I've been doing nothing for the first two days of my holiday...err..well, not exactly nothing, I did went shopping yesterday ;) bought new jeans and two tops. Today, I just stayed at home and watched TV. I even woke up late...took a shower at 2 pm... It rained quite heavily this evening...with thunder and lightning...I was alone and I was quite scared..hehe. the power went off a few times...after that I didn't bother to switch it on again...because I know it will go off again. The thunder and lightning was so loud, I could feel the ground shaking...I thought the house was going to fall apart. :(

I don't think I'll be going anywhere tomorrow... I don't have a car anyway...

Oh yes, before I forget, congrats to my bf's sis who just gave birth to a cute baby girl two days ago. :)

I guess that's all for today. will write more later if i have the time.
adieu!

I can't believe how much I miss this blog! I used to write here a lot, pouring all my thoughts...my feelings... but one day I just stopped. It's good to be here again...

My life for the past 5 months has gone through a lot of changes. GOOD AND BAD. I went to a NEW place, almost 300 Km from home, met a lot of NEW people, did a lot of NEW things, had a lot of FUN, went through a stage where I was so MISERABLE that I wished I could just die, learn a lot of NEW things... haih...

I'm coming home today!!! 3 weeks of HOLIDAY. weehee. can't wait! I really need a break!! I'm sick of school books already...Ayah will come and pick me up around 5.30pm today...will stay in KL for one night and then back to JB!!

will write more later. out of ideas right now.
adieu!