HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!!!

AYAH!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
HOPE U WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!!
LOVE YOU AYAH!!!

"Don't worry, it's not a loss of mankind" -rasyiqah, when talking about guys in KMS.

On another topic, I would like to talk about friendship. Yes, friendship. Since I was in form 4, I only had one bestfriend, and she was, and still is, everything to me. I could not think of one moment that I feel like pushing her off a building. We rarely annoy each other, and I think she is the one who understands me the most.

Just imagine, she was there when nobody wanted to be my friend, she was there when I was at my lowest low, she was there when a guy came into my life, she was there when the guy left, she was there when I was crying in the middle of the night, she was there when I wasn't crying...

I love her to bits and I'd jump off cliffs to save her life.

Being here, without her, especially after feeling hurt by a friend, makes me feel like crying. I used to run to her and she would make me feel all better... but now she's not here, and if someone hurts my feelings, I have no choice but to keep everything inside my heart. I have a feeling that this heart of mine is going to burst into pieces because of all the feelings and emotions that I've kept crammed inside.

(Actually, I have deleted the last bit of my post. I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings especially this friend of mine. I don't blame her for treating me like that, and as for right now, I can still take it. )

Weheeee. Home is where the heart is!!!

I am so happy to be home! even if it's only for the weekend. I am so sick of KMS that I'd do anything to be some place else. It was last week that I decided I HAVE to go back home or else I'd go crazy! Everything about KMS is just wrong for me right now.

I reached my beloved JB at 5 pm and Dad picked me up at the bus stand near my house.

So, here I am now. In front of the computer. I've just finished chatting with my Brother. He seems happy :) and I love his new place. He showed me around using his webcam.

Ayong chatted with me too. She too, seems to be enjoying her holiday in Paris :)
She said she bought me TWO zara t-shirts. Thank you Sis. Love you so much ( with or without the shirt, hehe) She says that it is wayyy cheaper over there if compared to Malaysia... maybe that's why she can buy me two :)

I hope abg ARF is having a blast in Paris with Sis.

Mum cooked my favourite dish. hehe. HAPPY HAPPY

Oh before I forget, Abang, Please Please do not call me Debabs. I'm afraid it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy! Nanti Iqa DEBAB betol2 nanti. Hahah.

My first REPEAT paper is on the 16 of October. I will only be going back on the 16/17 while the rest of my friends are going back on the 13. Serves me right for not getting an A on that math paper. :(

I miss Hidayah.
I think I'm going to call her TONITE.

Later.

I'm hungry
DS served Bubur for breakfast today. Sorry to say, it looked yucky and I couldn't bring myself to eat it.

My close friends, which i will name them Violet, Blue, and Red, are doing a video project for Violet's friend in the States.

My Lose Weight Project is not really working and it's only been 2 weeks.

Mara is going to pay for all my repeat papers. THANK YOU MARA

My exam is in one month and I am not really ready.

Most of the cats are gone. I sort of miss Kecik.

Future Doctor is the biggest jerk ever.

Mystery guy is still sweet and I still feel like dancing.

Violet's brother was cheated by his GF. :-( and they've broken up.

I have no idea how my Brother is doing because it's been a while since I talked to him. Call me, Abang

I lost the back of my earring yesterday. :-(

Red bought a new bag. Blue is using the computer next to me.

Violet's wearing an earphone.

I need to wash my bed sheets this Friday.

I'm craving for chocolate but I can't eat them.

Mr.Computer Guy is sweet but he's married with two kids.

Btw, Future Doctor is offially gone from my life.

Mystery guy is getting sweeter than ever
:-)

:-)

smiling.

:-)

still smiling

:-)

I feel like dancing

This was back then. 3 years ago I think. I was at my minimum weight, 45 kg :)


This is me, now. Yes, i am that fat. I've gained more than 10kg. I wear a size XL for most of my clothes.

I'm trying to get back to 45 kg, coz i think that is my ideal weight.
Wish me luck!

a productive holiday indeed

movies watched:
Man Laksa (don't ask)
Gubra
High school musical
Ada apa dengan cinta

homework? err

weight lost? none

i'm dead

FUTURE DOCTOR DOES NOT WANT TO TALK
WELL,
IT'S HIS LOSS
I DON'T INTEND TO GIVE HIM MORE THAN TWO DAYS TO TALK ABOUT THIS
after two days, my life is back to normal. without him.

mak just lectured me about my weight. she went on and on about how i should stop eating junk food. she expects me to quit drinking Milo (which is my fav drink ever and i am so addicted to it) and also no more carbonated drinks, chocolates... and bla bla. my god, i seriously can't imagine my life in KMS without all these comfort food. I mean, KMS life is hard enough, and without Milo, maltesers, twix and carbonated drinks, I'd sure go crazy!!! The DS food is, well, not as good as home-cooked meals...
I need these things to survive (junk food , i mean)

I do realise that i'm getting bigger. twice the size i was 3 years ago. i dont like how i feel or look, but i dont know how to start losing weight either.

mak said she wants to "tarah" a bit of my butt, thighs, arms, tummy... (that's basically my whole body) she said the next time she sees me, i better lose some weight.

I'm in trouble!!