"...where are you when I desperately need you?...where are you when my tears are streaming down my cheecks? when I need someone to wipe them off, when I need someone to tell me it's all going to be okay, when I need someone to listen and understand how I feel inside?...where are you right now?...why are you not here with me?..."

"...denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku, sadarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang...tak terasa malam kini semakin larut, ku masih terjaga...sayang kau di mana aku ingin bersama, aku butuh semua untuk tepiskan rindu, mungkinkah kau di sana merasa yang sama, seperti diriku, di malam ini...."

Okay okay, I know the words are a bit too mushy...but I really like this song. The first time I heard it, I cried. (Not that it has anything to do with me) But still the words really touched my heart. It's a sountrack from the movie "Ada Apa Dengan Cinta".

Anyways. I'm at home now. Alone. Feeling kind of low. I need something to cheer me up right now. Turning the music to full blast didn't work, dancing didn't work, TV didn't work, chatting with some friends didn't work. I guess all I need is that someone who always manage to put a smile on my face, but he/she is not here to cheer me up right now.

My sis IM'd me and asked me if I want to go swimming with her tomorrow morning. With Nana and Abg Ipin. Hmm. I had no idea that tomorrow is a holiday. I guess I have to cancel my plans tomorrow since my parents would be at home. I might go swimming.

So what else what else. hmm. Let me see. Oh yeah, I'm supposed to call Nor today, and Hidayah. I need to ask them if our plan to see Mrs.Vee is still on. And then I have to call Mrs.Vee to confirm.

I'm still feeling very low. Someone please help me. I tried calling Hidayah, she didn't pick up the phone. Both house phone and cellphone. Hidayah if you are reading this, please call me back. A.S.A.P!

Another song that is stuck in my head right now is "That's when I love You"-Aslyn. I think this is my favourite song ever. Ever!

"...When you have to look away, When you dont have much to say, That's when I love you, I love you, just that way..."

"...So when you turn to hide your eyes, Cause the movie it made you cry, That's when I love you, I love you a little more each time..."

"...Here's my promise made tonight, You can count on me for life, That's when I love you, When nothing you do can change my mind. The more I learn, The more I love, The more my heart cant get enough, That's when I love you, When I love you no matter what..."

I'm hungry, I think I'm going to eat now. I just reheated last night's tomyam, and there is also last night's ikan bakar leftovers. Later.

Let me describe my day today. (Wednesday, April 6)

I woke up at 6.45 a.m (someone woke me up by texting me and reminded me to do my subuh prayer) So, I woke up, went to the bathroom to wash my face. At 7.00 am, dad knocked on my door and asked if I wanted to go jogging with him at Taman Bunga Istana. I quickly said yes, and got ready. I really need to lose weight and be fit! I have to, I want to. I want to look good and feel great. So my plan is to eat less, excercise more. The last time I went jogging was with my sister last Saturday. I think I'm going to keep this up. I've been on a diet for 3 weeks now and already I feel great. Seriously. I'll be like Kelly Rowland in a few more weeks. hehehehe.

So anyway, after dad and I went jogging, we had breakfast at Sameera, and then we went home. Dad went to work, and I was alone. I was so tired that I fell asleep at the couch for 45 minutes when my friend texted me. I then woke up and took a shower, even though I was still sleepy and tired. I felt a bit refreshed after I showered.

I didn't do anything much after that. I called Hidayah at 1 pm, we talked for an hour or so, gossiping about people. Hehe. After that I had lunch (it was last night's leftover) and then I watched some TV, and fell asleep again on the couch.
Mom and Dad got home from work around 5.30 pm.

I ate dinner a bit late today (I'm not supposed to have dinners according to my diet) but I was so hungry that I ate a little. I wanted to watch American Idol but Dad wanted to watch the news so I went into my room and started reading "Girlfriend In Coma". It was so boring that I took another book to read, by V.C Andrews. I forgot the title and I'm too lazy right now to check. But it was so much better than the first book. After reading a few pages, a friend texted me so I put down the book and texted my friend instead.

I'm going to sleep now. Good Night.

A lot of my friends have got offers from private colleges and such. I'm still waiting. (Well, I didn't apply for any private colleges) I really hope I get offered to study somewhere.

I just found out from my dad that the 80000++ are applying for the same scholarship that I applied for! and they only have like 1500 students to give it to. There's no way mine is going to get accepted! haih. Damn, I want it so bad!

I just would like to say that the reason I put Lindsay Lohan's song is because I like this song, NOT because I'm a fan of her. Thank You.

Hot Sunday-Bored
ChildhoodPictures-Scanned-Enjoy

Part 1


Princess Rasyiqah waiting for her Prince


Jumping on bed, before going to sleep


Somewhere Someplace I can't remember


Family Picture Taken 13 years ago




Part 2
The-Many-Many-Faces-Of-Me
(From-1988-to-2003)


Back in 1988, a year after I was born




Kindergarten Years.


A-Ten-Year-Old-Me


Chubbier Me With Short Hair Back in 2000


Hari Raya Back In 2002


Me with Long Wavy Hair Back in 2002


2003-Short Hair


Year 2002


Field Trip Back In 2002


Year 2002 again

Part 3
Me-Now
(Year 2005)

I tried changing the color of the fonts and now my blog looks too "pinkish" urghhhh. I should've just leave it the way it is.... and now I forgot what the original color that Kak Rodd did for me.

I didn't sleep at all last night...and now I'm tired. I need some sleep!!
I'll be at home all by myself today, and my sis left her car!
yeay!

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I was looking at pictures of my highschool years, and I decided to scan them and post it on my blog. I really miss school! So, here are pictures of my class during 5 years of highschool. I studied in SIGS back in 2000-2002 and TIJB in 2003-2004.


~2000~
My first year of highschool was in SIGS. All I did was play and did not studied at all. I remember failing a lot of subjects. But still, it was a fun year for me. I made new friends (and enemies). Can you spot me?


~2001~
This is a picture of my class back in Form 2 (SIGS). I can't remember that much from this year, but I do remember being asked to leave my Bahasa Melayu class for not doing my homework. I really didn't pay much attention to school back then! Oh, and this was the year I met my bestfriends! Hazirah, Adiba, Fairuz, Suraya! We were so close back then!!


~2002~
Form 3. I studied really hard that year, I started taking tuition classes, did a lot of study groups. I improved a lot that year! I didn't expect to get 6A's and 2B's for PMR. This was also my last year in SIGS.


~2003~
My first year at a new school. Sekolah Menengah Teknik JB. At first, I regretted coming to this school, the rules was just too strict...! The first week, all I did was cry, and I wanted to go back to SIGS. But I stayed anyway, and it wasn't that bad after all. I improved so much in this school, I studied more and managed to get good results every month...


~2004~
Form 5! This was the year I started playing around again and did not study at all. It was an important year for me, but I just...didn't care that much about my studies. My grades dropped, my teachers started to worry about me. But I managed to get good results for SPM in the end. I did get quite a few awards that year, eventhough I didn't do as good as I did back when I was in form 4.


A picture of my school's English Language Society. I was the vice treasurer.

And lastly...

I found this birthday card that someone gave me last year. I still keep it! (I love the dotted heart on my "I")

I woke up this morning with a smile, and I know today is going to be another great day! I love my life right now, everything just feels right. I can't wait to start my classes again this July (If I get accepted anywhere)I miss learning, I miss school! I know I'll be leaving home soon, and I'm going to leave my friends and family here, but I think it's going to be okay. I've never left home before my whole life, so this is going to be a hard experience for me.

Here are the lyrics of the song Secret Garden!

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mind
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away