I've had enough. I don't want to be taken for granted anymore. I will not let you walk all over me anymore. Enough enough. I'm no longer the nice girl you used to know. I'm sick of making excuses for you, believing all your lies, being treated like a fool. Sorry dear, I'm no fool. Stop making lame excuses, stop telling me lies, I don't believe you anymore.

I'm BACKKK! hehehe.
Ahh...it feels so good to be home. It's actually 2 in the morning right now... I was asleep and then I woke up and saw a message from someone on my handphone so now I can't sleep at all.

A lot has happened for the last three days. I went to Melaka on Sunday, it was scorching hot all the way! My head felt like it was going to explode! We reached there around 2.30 pm, went straight to the Hotel, checked in, and then went out to lunch with Abg Ipin somewhere. After that went back to the hotel to rest.
That night we were supposed to have dinner at Umbai with Abg Ipin's family but the place was too crowded that night and there were no places to sit or even fish to eat anymore. hehe. So, we changed plans and went to eat at Ayer Keroh. When we reached Umbai it was already 9.30 pm and by the time we reached Ayer Keroh, it was already 10.30 pm. I was already sleepy but VERY HUNGRY. heheh. I've never had dinner that late before... The food that night was so GOOD, I ate a lot! I felt like throwing up because I was soooo full. We finished dinner around 12.00 am and then everyone went back happy and with a full tummy. hehe. I went straight to bed after that.
My family and I went to Abang Ipin's house on Monday, and then off to KL that evening. We reached KL around 5 pm, checked into a hotel, and then went swimming with Nana. Hehe. I was tired that night so I stayed at the hotel room while Mom and Dad went out to buy me dinner. I slept quite early too, maybe because I was nervous about the interview.
Tuesday-interview day. Haha. Okay, all I will say is that I did my best, and the interview was okay! I left KL with a happy heart I guess.
After the interview, went back to the hotel which is just across the street, and then went swimming again.
We went to KLCC after checking out from the hotel, had lunch with Uncle's family there (oh I forgot to mention, today's nana's birthday) bought a book at Kinokuniya titled "Ain't she sweet?" and then back to JB. We reached JB around 7 pm.



.......happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to nana, happy birthday to youuuu....
happy birthday sis, sorry I forgot to get you a present. sorry yah. Love ya! Mmuaahhs!

Today was FUN! I had a great time today!

I went to see Tentang Dia with a friend which was a good movie...but a bit complicated. But still, it was worth watching! We saw the 5 pm show because the 3 pm was already full. We had lunch and did some window shopping. It was really fun. I can't stop saying fun now. hehe. fun fun fun.

After the show, had dinner at McDonalds, and then went home. I reached home at 8.20 pm. haha. I think this is the first time I reached home that late! Mom didn't say anything so I guess she didn't mind...besides, she knows the person I went out with...

Penatlah.
Just finished packing for tommorow.
Will write more when I come back from KL
Bye bye all.

I woke up quite late today, at 11.07 am. haha. I took a shower right after I got up and now here I am writing this. Hmm, I'm actually waiting for a call or text from a friend about our plans to watch 'tentang dia' today. Come on come on where are you? hehehehehe.

Later

Hey...I just realised something... I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. I don't think of him that much anymore. I wake up, and he's not the first thing I think about, and when I go to sleep, I just sleep. I think I'm ready to let him go now.

Maybe in a few days, I can forget him for good?

I'm going to watch 'Tentang Dia' tomorrow with a friend. I'll be going to Melaka on Sunday and then off to KL on Monday.

Hmm..what else what else? I was supposed to go jogging yesterday but it was raining so heavily. :( I picked up mom from work, picked up nana from school, went home, ate, watched TV, had dinner, and then watched TV again, and then went to sleep.
Not a very interesting day but it was okay.

I think that's all for now. It's still early anyway.
Later.

Is it wrong to love someone but feel happy when you're with someone else? It's not that you don't love that person anymore, it's just that there is someone else who cares about you more. Is it wrong to feel like you want to see the other person and talk to him every single hour of the day? The person that you love is never there for you, but there is someone else who cares for you and makes you feel good all the time. So, is it wrong for me to feel this way? I'm not saying I have feelings for the other person, but I just feel happy when I'm around him. I'm still deeply in love with the first person, but nothing I do can make him happy anymore. So, should I stay?

I got this quote someone else's blog:

"What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it....What good is a love if you're not gonna choose it?"

Have you ever had someone you care about so much and then one day you wake up to realise that the person is gone? Well, he/she is still there, but he/she is not the same anymore. When you look at him/her, you don't feel those feelings you used to feel- excitement,loved,appreciated,happy,fun,on top of the world. It's kind of sad you know, you feel like you've lost one part of you.

He/She used to make me happy, he/she used to be the reason for me to smile. I look forward to wake up each day because I know it will be another good day for me because I have him/her. Well, not anymore. I do care for him/her, and still love him/her more than ever, but I hate feeling like he/she doesn't care and doesn't love me like he/she used to. I've been crying a lot, and I hate that too. I hate feeling sad, I hate when he/she hurts my feeling without even realising it. I need the old him/her back. The one who used to be so loving and caring. The one who used to be so excited to see me and spend time with me. He/she is gone now. I can't find that person anymore. Now, when I'm with him/her, I see a different person. I can feel that we no longer agree in a lot of things, and we rarely talk anymore. I can feel that this friendship is going no where, and I'm really scared to lose him/her. I need him/her back. I really do. I miss the old him/her. Hmm. Sometimes I wish I could erase him/her from my life, so that I won't feel sad anymore. It's either I have the old him/her back, or never had him/her at all. Too much memories, it's too painful...can't take it anymore. Sick of crying and feeling miserable...

"A few questions that I need to know, how you could ever hurt me so? I need to know what I've done wrong, and how long it's been going on? Was it that I never paid enough attention? Or did I not give enough affection? Not only will your answers keep me sane, but I'll know never to make the same mistakes again. You can tell me to my face, or even on the phone. You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know. Did I never treat you right? Did I always start the fight? Either way, I'm going out of my mind, all the answers to my question, I have to find..."

*A Picture Of Moi*