"A few questions that I need to know, how you could ever hurt me so? I need to know what I've done wrong, and how long it's been going on? Was it that I never paid enough attention? Or did I not give enough affection? Not only will your answers keep me sane, but I'll know never to make the same mistakes again. You can tell me to my face, or even on the phone. You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know. Did I never treat you right? Did I always start the fight? Either way, I'm going out of my mind, all the answers to my question, I have to find..."

*A Picture Of Moi*

There is this girl that I'm really pissed off about. Well, she wrote a bulletin board in friendster and she was like "making fun" of those who want to be a teacher. I don't know what's her problem. She was like "hahahaha padan muka". I personally think that she is jealous that we KNOW what we want to do with our FUTURE and she is still figuring out her life. There is absolutely nothing wrong of wanting to be a teacher. She should really think about what she said and how many feelings she hurt. I wanted to post back what she wrote but I don't want to embarass her. I just want her to know that what she did...was VERY MEAN.

It's like almost 4 am in the morning and I just spent the last 3 hours talking to a friend on the phone. It's kind of nice you know, to have someone to talk to... to that person, thanks yah! you really cheered me up.

Okay, so I had a long day today. (well, yesterday) I went to see "Guess Who" with epul. The movie's very hilarious. I needed some laughs. I guess I picked the right movie today. After that we had lunch at season and then went to Metrojaya because I needed to buy a few things.

I'm kind of tired right now. Maybe I will write more later.
Good night! (or morning)

Oh yeah, I changed the song. Enjoy!

A pen...a piece of paper...300 words...me...hands not moving...can't think...of interesting things to write...need to complete it soon...help

Anyways, I'm not that excited about KMJ. Yes-I will have Hidayah with me there but this is THE FIRST TIME I'm leaving home. I know Tangkak is not that far but still...Home is always the place where I feel safe. I'm going to miss my GREEN ROOM, I'm going to miss MY VERY COMFORTABLE BED, I'm going to miss MY OWN TOILET, will miss the 24-hours of INTERNET CONNECTION, and WEBCAM-ming with FRIENDS in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, going to miss THE TELEPHONE, surely will miss ASTRO and my favourite TV SHOWS. I'm sure going to MUM'S COOKING. I'm going to miss EPUL, we won't be seeing each other that much after this, or maybe not at all? I'm going to miss MY FAMILY... I'm going to miss having Dad around to help me with stuff, will miss talking to Mum from the window of my room while she's ironing clothes, miss fighting with Nana, miss going shopping or jogging with big sis, miss seeing Abg Ipin around the house, miss chatting with Abang in Paris. Ahhh. now I feel like crying. I'm going to miss my life for 17 years at home.

Eh, should I bring Memel with me? Atleast I have a tiny piece of home with me at KMJ...hehehehe.

(In case you are wondering what/who Memel is...)


bye bye bed.

I'm having troubles searching for ideas on what to write lately. I can't think of anything important or meaningful to write.
I'm tired.
There's just so much to do...and so little time.

Hmm...hehe.I posted pictures of my BESTFRIEND and I yesterday, and then deleted the post because I got so many comments from my friends, asking me if we're a couple. Well, NO, we're not. We're bestfriends. So...I guess now that it's all clear, I can post the pictures again. :)



Oh...I was bored yesterday so I made this...

Oh my god, there're just so much to do but so little time and so little $$ to do everything.
I need so many things, but I'm not sure if I have enough $$ to buy everything.
These are just some of the things I need before I register at KMJ : ( My needs, not what KMJ asks me to bring )

1. A new bag to put my school things, which I already found at metrojaya that costs RM179.00.
2. Atleast 3 pairs of new baju kurung.
3. A new pair of jeans which will cost around RM180-RM250
4. Stationary
5. New Outfits. (the kinds that I can wear at KMJ, because I think most of my outfits are not appropriate to wear over there)
6. Shoes. Sandals. (costs around RM30-RM70 each)
7. Make-up. (Not that I will wear it over there)
8. A cool pencil case.

And so many more...I just can't think of everything right now. And I haven't receive my letter from KMJ yet.
I need lots of $$. Fast.

I'm so happy for AMINAH and HIDAYAH. They got an interview from JPA and if they passed the interview, they just might get to study overseas! They're just so lucky!! Aminah also got an interview from Petronas, lucky her! All her hard work paid off after all. I've seen how hard she studied in school, and she deserves to get all this offers! And Hidayah, I'm very happy for you! Good luck for your interview this Tuesday! I'm sure you'll do just fine. Don't worry too much okay? (You should thank me because if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't even apply for JPA...heheheheee.kidding!) You deserve it! I love you both so much, always praying for the best for both of you!

As for me, I'm still waiting for MARA and BPG. I'm not putting too much hope in it though... My results isn't that good anyway. Still praying and hoping!

friday...friday...friday...
I'm so bored right now, Hidayah just left. We watched "Hide And Seek" together, ate french fries and just talked. After that we played the Sims2. She had to leave early because her bro wants to use the car.
So, I'm alone again. I haven't heard from him yet today. Maybe he's still not back yet. Well, I'm still waiting for his msg :)
I don't know what else to write, I still haven't got any calls from MARA. Still hoping and praying.
I think I'm going to take a nap now, I have to pick up mum at 4.30 p.m.
Later