Everytime I log into my blogspot account, I will spend a lot of time just to find something smart to talk about. All my past entries are what you can call "rubbish". I've never talked about interesting/important stuff because my head is just empty. I cannot come up with anything good and worth reading. I do not read that much anymore, and I am not up-to-date with what's happening around the world, and my english is getting worse. I used to love writing essays, and I used to keep a diary/journal but not anymore. I have no idea why I stopped writing...

I seriously have to read more (and write more). You know how sometimes you think of a great story in your head that you just have to write in on paper, but when you've gone through all the trouble getting the paper, and finding a pen (with ink), the story just disappear? and sometimes you are half-way writing it and then you get tired and just stop? and you decide to write it another time but you never did. These two situation always happen to me. I'm just too lazy which is not good because i'm supposed to be a future english teacher and if my english does not improve in the next 6 years, well, i feel sorry for my future students. I'm going to be responsible if my future students fail their english.

I always thought my english was good (beyond good) until i went to KMS. I met a lot of friends who speak and write better than me. There are some who are worse than me but that's their problem not mine. I'm very concerned about my english right now. I have improved a tiny bit after mixing with these people (people who speak/write better than me) but it's not enough. I want to be able to write using "big" words, and speak without adding "lah" at the end of every sentence.

It's kind of funny that I'm a Tesl student, but my english is just average. This is so embarassing.

I have to go read a book.
Later

Oh, Happy New Year