I almost cried listening to Anna Nalick's "Breathe" :

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just a day, he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
'Cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
Inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

LIFE IS LIKE AN HOURGLASS, GLUED TO THE TABLE

How I wish I could undo my mistakes, go back to the past, relive it without regrets.

I took a walk back to my past, yesterday, two days ago, a year ago, 5 years, and back to when I was a child. Things were much simpler and easier then. I did not have to deal with the real world, I had my family to take care of my problems. When I was 4, if I had a tummy-ache, mum would rub some kind of magic oil on my tummy to make it better. At night, if I was having nightmares, all I need to do was scream my lungs out until mum or dad came to rescue me. Now that I am 18, I have to learn to take care of myself. I have to face my problems alone, and this time, the problems are bigger than tummy-ache's.

I find myself breaking down more often lately. I cry a lot, and most of the time, I don't even know why. I am supposed to be strong, but I am not. I am scared of my future, what if I do not make it? What if I let everyone down? I hate to think of the what-if's.

This year is the toughest year for me. No kidding. I wish I could put aside all my current problems and finish this year first. I wish there is an easy way to tell someone that we should focus on what's important first, but there isn't. I cannot just run away from everything, it will only make it worse.

What I really want right now is my mom. I want her to tell me things are going to be okay.

i'm not in a good mood right now. something to do with someone. but i'm not going to write it here.

anyway, dayah came to my house today. we had a great time, catching up and stuff. it was fun. :) i miss her already.

i haven't started on my homework yet. i'll do it tonight.

i feel tired, emotionally. shael would understand what i'm trying to say. i feel like going somewhere far (really far) away from everyone. i know that running away from my problems won't solve anything, but right now it feels and seems like the only right thing to do. if i had $$$, i bet i'd already go somewhere far.

now i know what guys do when they are bored.haha.

It's 10.30 am, and I'm in the mood to do online quizes.

Your Stipper Song Is

Toxic by Britney Spears "With the taste of your lips I'm on a ride You're toxic I'm slippin' under" You may dance for someone - but only to weaken their defenses.

What Song Should You Strip To?

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

muahhahaha...

okay, another one...

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices It's nothing to do with the way you look... He's just has really fallen for you But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

Does He Only Love You For Your Body?

I'M BACK IN SEREMBAN

got my results...
not that good

I don't know what to write.
later

Your French Name is:

Orane Jean

What's Your French Name?

ACTION!

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Title: Solero shot ride
Location: Genting Highlands
Year: 2004?

We were bored...so I asked him to tie my hair.
(sorry it's up side down...hehe)

I AM SO TIRED OF DOING SOCIOLOGY. IT IS NEVER-ENDING. IT WON'T END!

HOMEWORK

Sociology is driving me crazy. hehe. I hope I will finish it on time.
I already gave up doing maths... for now. It's too hard. As for literature, I keep falling asleep reading Mill on the Floss. I hope I won't fall asleep again tonight.
I can't wait for dayah to come home this weekend. :-)