Deep inside, I want to curse you, I want to pray that bad things will happen to you, I want you to regret leaving me, I want you to suffer, I want you to go through the rest of your life without ever finding peace, and I hope that the next person you meet will shatter your dreams like you did mine.

but I won't do all that
because I know I am so much better than that.
I deserve to be happy and I deserve to smile.

Thinking about you makes me sick.
And I don't want to be sick anymore.